Deep Inside

My creator and killer

If I could see your end, my end
Without wasting my glimmer of life
My power of flutter
My ending fate

i am here– Alone
Here
Cold..

i am here
silent
far away..


2. Dark Again

dark again, me again
i know i m too close now
this life never has enough of me
it will never stop, i know it
i didnt want to fight
but i always did

why this sequence, life, vanishing,
why?

what have I done to fade away,
whom have I burnt and which creature?
When have I ripped the looks I wanted to rip violently?

i didnt want to fight


3. Unknown Cause

i dont say it's you
can't say
don't know

i dont say it's you
on my mind
can't say
don't know

i dont say it's me
who didn't make you love me
don't know

i don't know myself actually

can't say
don't know

but i always did

why this sequence, life, vanishing,
why?

I have always fought
but lost since the beginning
because I could never be the person they want me to be


4. Deadlife

I cannot bear this pain
You did it yourself they say
I don’t believe it
The case they put me in, I cannot fit in

Getting worse with every breath
not sleeping for thinking
to become the child of pain with darkness

Is it really my creator that punishes me?
I cannot believe that I don’t even want to feel that
I cannot be responsible for my own creation

I cannot bear this pain
I am living to die
I already see the darkness in my grave
I live my grave

I am calling death, waiting my arms open wide
I am calling death, Would I wait for it to come?

I am calling death, waiting my arms open wide
I am calling death, Would I wait for it to come?

Why all this pain, whose puzzle is this life that we are living?

I am calling death, waiting my arms open wide
I am calling death, Would I wait for it to come?

I am calling death, waiting my arms open wide
Your sweet world, I leave to you..


5. Tiring Flames

I must stop before I kill what is inside me
I may hurt them
But I should’nt hurt too much
It was always me hurting myself

I put the blame on others
I created the unhappiness
Never looked for reason to be happy

Things always happened behind my back
This was the ordinary problem of everyone
I thought mine was more
But I was wrong, I should have forgiven

im tired of fighting with myself
im tired of burning in your flames

So called friends never watched my back
Always looked for the best place to stab
Still I was wrong,
I should have forgiven

It is these thoughts destroying everything
Being a man is the hardest of anything

im tired of fighting with myself
im tired of burning in your flames


6. Created Hell

You seek to cease your existence since you were born
Does it matter what you left behind?
do you think the shape of your inevitable doom matters

Your lie of innocence in love for one night
Is it not your misery, just like the fear of love?
How visible is your self being inside you, from your mask

Cease all these questions, only live the endless now
Cease all these questions, only think of your hell

Cease all these questions,
only think Of your hell that the people created...

Your desire to rule, arrogance, hate,
Isn’t it a reflexion of your spirit, which is a slave to your fears, to your mask
Is it not these nonsense emotions of yours, making you this miserable?

Cease all these questions, only live the endless now
Cease all these questions, only think of your hell

Cease all these questions,
only think Of your hell that the people created...

7. Daydream

i have gone to the place, where I thought I was happy
not thinking of coming back
I saw the good fellings in eyes full of hatred
while watching them with absurd looks
I was screaming at them fiercely

I wanted to hope the eternity of that moment
wanted to unite the lonely pieces
wanted to hold every part of myself,
going on different directions and start again

but nothing happened
but nothing happened

even this moment, I think I understand
could it be a misunderstanding for the future?
Could it bring the moment back to me?

I wanted to do it all
Drowned myself in questions


but nothing happened
but nothing happened

8. Judas Kiss

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