pe you're proud of me

I was told to love you
I learned how to hate
I was born to save you
Your choice became your fate
You can't take care of yourself
How could you care for me?
I am your retribution
When is my soul free?
I never asked for mercy
You told me to forgive
The blood is on your hands
I hope your proud of me
And what I've done to set you free
I can barely hold myself

Fascination, stimulation, stronger as I learn
By his hand, I understand
I was told to burn

Bastard son, your saving grace
Left alone I found my place
I find love in what I steal
You should of left me rest in Potters Field
I was told to.I was told to...

Your beliefs turned me into this
Bite the hand that feeds, you're so selfish
Thank you mother for giving me this life
I'll bring down the rapture
Then we'll see who lies


2. Only

Everything is perfect
Everything is sick, that's it
You can't tell me to stop it
You can't tell me not to quit, that's it

Revolve around yourself
It's you and no one else
Hard for me to stay
Swinging moods that change
From calmness to deranged
Unpredictable, unpredictable

You would see if
Only
You hadn't taken things out of my hands
Only
You never wanted to understand

Classing ways to live here
Compromise for me
I'm at both ends of the spectrum
You're somewhere in the between
Ah, come clean

Crucified, terrified, sacrifice, my whole life
If only...
I can't contain myself
I can't contain myself
I just can't take myself


3. Room For One More

Fix the mental, as if that changes anything
Your heart is cured now, you're normal once again
One confession, you thought that's all it took
But redemption, doesn't let you off the hook

One of us
Can't erase the past to change who he would be
One of us
On a whim would act, then look for sympathy
Not from me

Hear me say...

One more
Chance to believe in
That you can even the score
One more
Place at the table
Always room for one more
Room for one more

Thing evil, is that just your normal gig
Fueled by hatred, happy as a stuffed pig
You're so lonely, everyone around you reeks
Of indifference, thriving in their apathy

Your schism, my distress
Your failure is my success
Squeezed out, kept me down
What goes around comes around
I can wait you out
Patience is my virtue
Call it payback, call it proper grounds
What goes around always comes around, always comes around


4. Packaged Rebellion

In and out
Try to be
What you see
Anarchy
Everything, everyone, everyman
Rebellion
But you can't make a move

If you win then you lose
Look at me to approve
You're so hard, you're so real
You got nothing

Who laughs last?
A question, not a task
I ask,
What's your reason,
Do you believe in anything?

I don't wanna how you're so driven
I don't wanna know your influence
I don't need to prove myself
I just need to be myself
It doesn't show how I'm trying to be
It just shows who I am

Gone,
Take your packaged rebellion
Move on,
Revolution on your sleeve
If you say, mean it
If you mean it, do it
You can't live your life through me
Gone,
Take your packaged Rebellion
With the air you breathe

Look around
No one cares
Who you are
Why or where
You're so blind, you're so dumb, you're so deaf
Like a gun
That you can't even shoot
To the point that is moot
And you don't have a clue
You're so hard, you're so real
You got nothing

Who laughs last?
A question, not a task
I ask,
What's your reason,
Do you believe in anything?

I don't wanna hear how you're so driven
I don't wanna know your influence
I don't need to prove myself
I just need to be myself
It doesn't show who I am trying to be
It just shows who I am

Gone,
Take your packaged rebellion
Move on,
Revolution on your sleeve
If you say it, mean it
If you mean it, do it
You can't live your life through me
If you do it, live it
If you live it, say it
Action is the air you breathe

I saw your act, it came and went
As flaccid as an ex-president
Your ideas are out of place
It's anarchy with a friendly face
Rebel, rebel, don't regret
Screw 'em every chance you get


5. Hy Pro Glo

I...
Who, what, where, when, why,
How many ways can you lie
How many ways can you try
How many ways can you die

What am I gonna do
I can't look at you
What are you gonna do
You're no hypocrite

I bash my head against a wall everyday
You'd bash your head against a wall anyway
And then you took a look to see if I care
But I can't, and I never did
What'd you expect me to give
You never deserved my respect

How many ways can you try
It burns a hole inside my mind

What am I gonna do
I can't look at you
Can't look like you
I'm no hypocrite

What are you gonna do
You love to look at you
Don't have a clue
You're no hypocrite

You've got a hole inside that you have to feed
You've got a hole you'll use to get what you need
And then you took a look to see if I care
But I can't, and I never did
What'd you expect me to give
You never deserved my respect

You've got that look I wanna know
You've got that look, the hy pro glo


6. Invisible

I'm wiping the slate spotless
I vow this is your final chance
Almost all but little faith has been thrown out the window
I promise to sustain my stance
You've taken everything from the get go
And you've given nothing in return
Your sado-masochism has reached the ninth inning
Still you're puzzled to see I'm concerned

Struggling, to come to terms with
This god-awful life that I live
Stumbling, but still I try
To get out from under your grip

Transparent in critical moments
You drop me when your hands aren't full
You call yourself my closest friend
Then you make yourself invisible

My simmering blood is rising
Primed and ready to explode
Get off your high horse and come to the party
I'll beat you into overload
Only through your limited viewpoint
You think you know how I exist
Easy to turn my back on the system
Hard not to be an atheist

Back in the days when promises were made
Equality for all
You go by the word from the man who gives it
Never expecting a fall

Struggling, to come to terms with
This god-awful life that I live
Stumbling, but still I try
To get out from under your grip

Transparent in critical moments
You drop me when your hands aren't full
You call yourself my closest friend
Then you make yourself invisible
Transparent in critical moments
You drop me when your hands aren't full
You call yourself my closest friend
Then you make yourself invisible
Make yourself invisible, make yourself invisible
Make yourself invisible, make yourself invisible again

Burn...
I never should've trusted
I never should've trusted
I'm sickened and disgusted
I never should've trusted
What happened to me?


7. 1000 Points Of Hate

I hate you and you hate me
I cannot not look at you and breathe
So full of hate that I can't see
My funny vibe is hard to miss
Your ignorance can't be called bliss
I have to wash my hands of this

My mind has never been so clear
My hate for you, is one to fear
Take a good look what do you see
No friend to me, Jealously

(It's me) I know how to hurt myself
It's me that makes you hate me
It's me that tries to break free
(It's me) I know how to hurt you
It's me that makes a move
With what I say and what I do

You walk through life deaf, dumb and blind
But when it calls you'll have to find
Why must we all be so unkind
I can't believe it's come to this
The marks I make you can't dismiss
I have to wash my hands of this

Me, you, who is gonna get it
And you can't let it
Drive you to insanity
Me, you, who is gonna take it
When all this hate explodes
When all this hate starts to explode

Deal with the hate inside
That causes you the pain inside
That turns into the rage inside
That makes you feel like death inside


8. Black Lodge

Worship the ground you barely walk on
You give of yourself but your angels are gone
Deny your body is screaming
But your heart and your soul they're bleeding
Just to fall asleep is a godsend
Until your demons appear again

I am a witness to your demise

Your biggest secret is one you can't keep
Lift up your head if you're only asleep
You try to hold onto reason
Why can't you see that you're leaving
My love for you knows no distance
But it can't fight your resistance

I am a witness to your demise
I am the one who saw through the lies

Give me,
The one thing you can't give
Take me to
The black lodge where you live

Deny your body is screaming
But your heart and your soul they're bleeding
Just to fall asleep is a godsend
Until your demons appear again

I am a witness to your demise
I am the one who saw through the lies
My love has always been blind


9. C11H17N2O2SNA (Sodium Pentathol)

If one day you'd backed up a promise you made
We'd have to make it a holiday
'Cause we both know that day would never come again
If one day your word was as good as gold
It'd be too late cos I'd be too old
I don't think a human being could live that long

I never gave a damn
I was never even a fan
The only thing that makes me smile if your pain
I don't even care
When did you treat anyone fair?
To say I'm not enjoying this would be insane

Sodium Pentathol was an idea I had
But what does the truth mean now
To all the lost souls you've grabbed

A mass delusion, there's no confusion
Just a hypocrite
Who'd never cop to it

You're in total control and you're still a liar
I can't drink from the cup
I question your authority
You gotta 'fess up
You're in total control and your faith is tired
I can't drink from the cup
Where is truth in the trinity
You gotta 'fess up

If the affects you it's hard to tell
You spent too many cold days in your cell
Never been one to admit that something, might be wrong

I never gave a damn
I was never even a fan
The only thing that makes me smile is your pain
If I ever had the chance
I'd kick out your chair just to watch you dance
Irrelevant, your vanity prevents change

Sodium Pentathol still sounds great to me
An imitation of life buried in theology

Cop to it
You're in total control and you're still a liar
You're in total control and your faith is still
I can't drink from the cup
'Fess up


10. Burst

How much does an opinion weigh
Does it really matter what I say
I can't be responsible
Be yourself or be a tool

Who cares what you expect
What is politically correct?
All my ideas are in bad taste
Get off my case and...

Judge yourself
No one else

I don't intend to offend
I just offend with my intent
Beauty's in the beholder's eye
I just like the ugly side

See things the way I do
Walk a mile in my shoes
Don't assume and damn it, don't praise me
My thoughts would drive you crazy
See things the way I do
Walk a mile in my shoes
Don't assume and damn it, don't praise me
My thoughts would drive you crazy

Kill someone, save a life
Don't do drugs, drink all night
Worship Jesus, praise Satan
Opinions are all contradiction

It's not a case of wrong and right
You may hate what I may like
Vice versa, it's the same
Just do it, no pain no gain


11. This Is Not An Exit

I know I'll never be free
Change doesn't come easy
And if I'll never be free
You'll live in hell with me

Fear, a contradiction
Co-existence, darkness brought to light
My own skin don't seem to fit me right
Pain is my way, of self expression
A fatal choice that always hangs above
Love what I kill, kill what I love

I run, you run, you stop and then you take it
I run, you run, I stop and then you get it
I run, you run, you stop and then you take it
I run, you run, I stop and then you get it

From me,
The one who's giant steps ahead of where you'd be
What you don't see
I know I'll never save myself
Dying from this immortality

This is not an exit
I can never change it
This is not an exit
It's no way

Out, out of touch with
Mortal thoughts, humanity's a dream
Things are not what they seem
Hungry for you, but not to hurt you
Hunger for the secret of your life
I'm a timeless clock and you kill time

This is not an exit
I can never change it
You stop and then you take it
I stop and I can't fake it
This is not an exit

Pain is my way of self expression
A fatal choice hangs above
Love what I kill, kill what I love
Love...

This is not an exit
This is not an exit
I can never change it
This is not an exit
Hand over fist
Come and taste my dark trick
Hand over fist
Kill you when I give it
This is not an exit
This is not an exit
I can never change it