o think of.
FATHER BLACK, priest, who judges me wrong.
The MOON, who echoes my fears.
ENDORPHINE, mute character.
GOD, Almighty King of All.
The DEVIL, King of What Is Left.
CHRIST, one very sick character.
PROMETHEUS, the only one that really dies.
YOU, who maybe misses me.
The OPERA GHOST, hidden somewhere.


1. Long River

[Inside the ambulance. The sound of sirens. I feel cold and heavy sleep. The sirens sound distant. I shut my eyes closed, reopening them beside the margins of a river, through which one balsa slowly approaches. I think I know the man that leads the balsa, so I walk to the margin. Then I see dead men emerging from the waters.]

[The choir of Drowned Men:]
Let it drown
Let it drown

I step into the balsa.

[Charon, the Coriphaeus:]
Understand that rivers flow to the Ocean
So will this one that now we sail
Understand the beauty in the need of these winds to come
Beautiful ship so fragile
See this fish that feeds the man that will feed the worm
Then to the salmon feed again
Does the fish ask why to die or to be born?
Why the worm, the hook, the man?

Let the Long River run
[Drowned Men:]
We all gonna drown
Let the Long River run...

[Charon:]
Life is short, friend, there's no time, you must realize
Till death takes you by the hand
Understand that to us all death is no surprise
So be prepared, my dying friend

Let the Long River run
[Drowned Men:]
We all gonna drown
Let the Long River run...

[Charon & Drowned Men:]
Waters go by beneath the skies
Running from my eyes
As long I sail, my will prevail
When wind ceases I will die

[Charon:]
Understand you have to let the Long River run
Understand you have to let the Long River run
Let the Long River run...

[I fall from the balsa, sinking into the deep icy waters.]

[Charon:]
Let the Long River run
Inaction is action
Now you know the way

Let the Long River run...

Run over lover and mother
Possessions and mind distractions
Run over pushing too far
Run over family, enemies,
Religion, friendly prisons,
Boring days and my guitar

[I drown.]


2. Central Hospital

[I open my eyes. I'm inside a hospital room.]

[Me:]
What happened?
I think I fell asleep
I feel so cold
I'm all alone
I feel so weak
I can't move on
But I tried
I wonder

What happened?
I think I'm still asleep
They took my clothes
They took my name
They took my home
They took my pain
As I turned
Into a number

White walls, gray door
White pills, gray jar
White moon, black floor
White cell, gray bars

What happened?
I see faded colors

Fated colors...
I wonder


3. Three Parchæ

[Enter three persons, each one dressed in White, Gray and Black. One by one, they recite their terrible speech and leave.]

[Me:]
White one said to me how thin my life supposed to be
Gray one called it delusion
White one said that I suffer from a doomed disease
Black one called it salvation and sin

White Gray Black spinners of this vulgar fate
The thread of life is not broken yet
I defy you to rewrite your lines
Redefine my part, rearrange all this play

Why me?
Why me?
Why?

[Beautiful enough, Moon arises.]

[Me:]
Why, sister Moon?
Why do paint my fate so gray?
Why, Three-in-one?
Do reduce me to this play?

[Moon invites witches.]

[Me:]
Vida!
Vida Trágica!

[Witchat:]
Mítica Lógica Qu'ntica Trágica
Pérfida Sórdida Pútrida Trágica
Mágica Cética Cínica Trágica
Lépida Lívida Lúdica Trágica

Germinal Terminal


4. Pain

[I wake up in terrible suffering. I'm alone. I cry for help.]

[Me:]
I don't need more flowers
I don't need more sympathy
I don't need more integration
Treatment, I don't need

I don't need more pain
I don't need more pain
I don't need more pain
This hunger in my veins

Give me what I need
Give me what I need

I don't need more candies
I don't need more self-esteem
I don't need more conversation
Advisory, I don't need

I don't need more pain
I don't need more pain
I don't need more pain
I'm starving inside my brain

Give me what I need
Give me what I need

[Enter Endorphine.]

Want to ride the tiger
Want you even more now
Want to climb the spider
Want you my desire
Want you getting higher
Want to read the Times now
Want to hear a song then
Want you my desire

I need it
I need it


5. Envy

[Boring morning. Staring at the window, I see people walking by, so far away from me.]

[Me:]
It makes me feel so bad when I see you glad
It makes me feel so evil, ask me no reasons
All I've got left is wretched, dying or dead
How can lips bear to smile when tasting this poison?

Tell me
Teach me
Can't you?
Then I'll show you

I'll show you what is like to be buried alive
And how uneasy can be decomposition
Beware of my eye stalking, sucking you dry
One gaze of mine may bring out death as reflection

[My eye becomes a cold gun.]

Hush!
Time to die
I've laid my eye on you

But it feels like
Death-row instead of gardens
Raping instead of candy
Hatred instead of kissing
God take away this envy

Guilty!

[Guilty strikes me like a heavy metal thunder. I am scared. I better pray.]


6. Me And God

[Me:]
Dear father
In heaven
Make peace at my true heart
I suffer
Dear father
Feels like one missing part
Dear father
Forgive me
If I ever forgot you or done you wrong
Including this song

I'm not used to
Praise the love for you
What I feel is greater than a pray
Now I'm begging you
I'm down on my knee
But my soul don't knows what to say
Let me try again
I'll resume my pain
Dear father, show me that you hear
Cause I feel you so near

Give one more chance to me
Give one more chance to me

I know that I'm no saint
My freedom wrongly spent
But my sin was to love the life you gave to me
Dear father, will you hear?
I'm bursting into tears
I have suffered enough, father, can't you see?
If you have love for me
If you do care for me
Dear father, I beg you, don't fail me
If you just listen to me

Give one more chance to me
Give one more chance to me

[God:]
Do you understand me now?
You don't understand at all
Do you really know me now?
Look at yourself
See what I mean
That's what I want you to do for me now

[Me:]
Give one more chance to me
Give one more chance to me


7. The Silent King

[Exhausted, I fall into crimson slumbers and dream about the devil.]

[Devil:]
Yes, I am...
[Me:]
...the Silent King!

Devil, speak to me
Oh, as a friend
I depend on you
Please take my hand

You devil tell me
What can I do?

[Devil:]
Do what you will...

[Me:]
That's not an answer
I want the truth
I know you can bring something new
I want to be just like you wanted me to
Like a Silent King

[Devil:]
Yes, I am...

[Me:]
Devil, understand
Oh, it's all right
You can take my soul
For one night stand

I know, in devil's lies
May lie some truth

[Devil:]
In the silence...

[Me:]
Since I've been my own god
I've changed my rules
Evil is just one silly name
To what in me demands to my own demand
Like a Silent King

Look out!

[Devil:]
Yes, I am the Silent King.
The hangman's lucky lack
Can you tell me what is like
My teeth right on your neck?

Yes, I am the Silent King.
The mirror from the past
What is like to pay your bill
When just one minute is last?


8. Insomnia

[Darkest night finds me cold and awake in my deserted room.]

[Me:]
To sleep
To die... that's all
No more

To sleep
To die
Perchance to dream

I shall no longer close my eyes until it's dawn
To see how lifetime dreams may die when light is gone
No bitter sadness blurs my sight, tears I'll refrain
Now is the winter of my pain: it was all in vain

This night I woke up from some tragic, dazed dream
To which I, forceless, could resist but never win
Poor player that struts and frets his hour upon the stage
The lights are off, the crowd is gone,
the show now wants to die of age

I shall keep my eyes awake
I shall keep my eyes awake
I shall be strong
Carry on
Keep my eyes awake

I shall no longer close my eyes until it's done
To see how lifetime dreams may die with flesh and bones
Good bye old dreams, good night sunlight, tears I'll refrain
I need no reasons for my pain: it was all insane


9. Terminal Christ

[I need to rest. I am tired.]

[Me:]
Take this bitter wine away,
My Lord, Thy love is gall to me
Thy hand crushes my soul and makes me be
The man I must betray

Soon I will die
That's all consummate
My heart now is blind
So let be my fate

Afraid

All I see is fear and loss,
My Lord, my soul is sad till death
Why should I know how to choose my own path,
My Lord? Each way leads to the cross...

Soon I will die
Shall I still remain?
To save all mankind
Would I die again?

Afraid
I'm so afraid

Crucify me
Sacrifice me


10. Unchained Prometheus

[I sleep.]

[Me:]
So, this is the end.


11. Saudade

[After funeral.]

[You:]
Triste parto
Sonho de um sonho que se desfaz
Dormir, talvez, e não ser mais
Vida que jaz num retrato
De onde me vês, não mais estás