the only way to forget who I am

Your disability
Kept pushing me away
It went beneath what's so real to me
And threw it all away
I underestimated
The lengths that you would have gone
To deny who you are
You threw it all away

I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
It can only help me if it hurts

I won't give into, I won't give into...
I won't become one with your lies

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway

Aaaaaaaaaaah!!!

I will keep doing this to myself
'Cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
I'm too tired to feel anything anyway

I have become one with your lies



Play God.
trying to understand
how someone like you can still sleep at night
or are you too busy playing god
to fuckers that are chewing on your lies
another loser born?

fed on my fraggle mind
still I stood up on my broken knees
'cause everything that you took
gave me immunity to your disease
another life is torn?

I won't hear, I won't see
I will never be a part of your cause
'cause i'm alive and I still breathe
and your just a fucking waste of

time, what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it?
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it

I don't fear what you are
because you're only dangerous to what is weak
clinging to the stories you create
you make a living off of souls that bleed
another dotted line

I won't hear, I won't see
I will never be a part of your cause
'cause i'm alive and I still breathe
and your just a fucking waste of

time, what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it?
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it

i'm becoming of nothing
this is what you started

time, what you tried to offer me
was it really worth it?
sew up this hole inside of me
'cause you'll never take it

never take it


Seamless.
if you said that you could kill the things inside me
you're just a liar, everything inside me's dead
it's nice of you to think that I could ever be that
but i'm not, i'm just a failure instead

don't preach a story of success and gifted thinking
because in the end were gonna end up the same way
keep on living your whole life on hands and knees
'cause i'll be standing waiting, life ends up the same way

never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me

the life you've given is a poorly painted picture
the colors running and it's staggering my life
a definition of the truth is all I wanted
not mental beatings falling short of stupidity

don't give a speech on your prolific ways of living
you speak in vain whether you think you do or not
spreading infection of the truth that leads to sick lies
you are the shame inside of me, you are mindrot

never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me

if you said that you could kill the things inside me
you're just a liar, everything inside me's dead
it's nice of you to think that I could ever be that
but i'm not, i'm just a failure instead

you're so mistaken on the life you think I wanted
i'll give you credit for the effort you put forth
'cause as it ends you're gonna start to realize that
your fuckin' prejudice and words of wisdom go unheard

never wanted this life
because it's meaningless
gone away from me

never wanted this life....



Synthetic
I can never feel the way you do
but it still becomes me now
I can't take the way you do
but it's still inside me

synthetic solution
synthetic, i'll become
synthetic, if it makes this go away

still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
how, I let you get inside of me?

twist my words the way that you do
'cause it falls on deaf ears now
still, i've learned to numb your views
but they're still inside me

synthetic solution
synthetic, i'll become
synthetic, if it makes this go away

still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
how, I let you get inside of me?

I will never follow you...

all this time I thought I was myself
and I thought I never could become you
all this time I thought I was myself
and I thought I never could become you
wrong

still I waste another day of my life
and it sickens me to feel this way
now I can't make up my mind, is this right?
how, I let you get inside of me?

I have become synthetic




Thу Height Of Callousness
My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the fear seem almost right

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I see it? Can I?
I can't even recognize myself
I turned into what destroyed it
Drown the truth out until it all makes sense again

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved

Oh!!!!

Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity [x4]

Aaaaaaaaaaah!!!

My frustration caused the callous
Turned my senses into spite
My perception with no conscience
Made the dear seem almost right

I was unaffected for so long
Now I'm fucking ruined
I was desperation for so long
Now it's fucking gone

Take my fucking conscience from me
Try to save me from myself
Turn my fucking thoughts against me
Now my ways will be dissolved

The height of callousness
The height of callousness takes over
The height of callousness
The height of callousness it's over

Fuck integrity
Fuck integrity